SRI SATHYA SAI HRUDAYA
(Indweller of Hearts)
By Bombai Srinivasan
“You should not cry hereafter”
married quite early in age, when I was working in a Government
department in the south. Due to low salary and limited scope for
building up a future career, I resigned the job and mover to
Bombay. All my brothers were settled there and I hoped that I
would not have any problem there. But the one big problem of
availability of accommodation in Bombay was completed overlooked
by me,. The houses of my brothers were too small and could just
accommodate me with great difficulty; there was no room for
setting up a family. Nobody rents out house due to the fear that
tenants would not vacate. Or they take a huge sum as one payment
without receipt, which is known as pakidi. Or you should
purchase your own flat, which I could not afford. As such I could
not bring my wife to Bombay for the next three years.
prolonged wait I could secure some living space on a nominal rent
in a suburb called Goregoan. It was an asbestos roofed tenement
built by the Government for the sake of hutment dwellers. The
original allot tee, a Sikh, had died and his family had gone to
their native place. I occupied the house and immediately y wife
joined me. The locality was very bad and the inhabitants were slum
dwellers. Somehow, my wife who is of very understanding nature
adjusted to the situation and tried to bring about a happy home.
We lived there for four years.
income was very meager. It was only while we were in this house,
that we got our first son (as I had narrated earlier).
was at her native place in Kerala, during the days when I started
hearing about the advent of Bhagavan Sri Sathya Sai Baba and had
my first Darshan. I was in the happiest mood, now that I got
inhaled the initial delights of the Living God and also benefited
from His Grace by the birth of a boy. I felt eager to share so
much with my wife on her arrival in Bombay with the child. But
when she reached Bombay it became a different story. She entered
the house with the child in hand and proceeded to the place where
normally we kept the pictures of various gods and goddesses, to
offer her Namaskarams.
She looked with
curiosity at the photograph of Bhagavan Baba occupying a place
with the other deities. She enquired about the identity of the man
in the photo, who, to her looked like a “villain in the films”.
She asked me to remove it from its place so that she could offer
her Namaskar, to the other deities. I tried to put her wise about
the various experiences of mine and that of my brother in
regaining hearing capacity. I told her, of the belief in the
devotees, that Bhagavan Baba is a reincarnation of God in this
Kali Yuga. I also brought up before her the visionary pictures of
my first Darshan of Swami, my prayers to Him and the evolving
faith and devotion in me on Swami. I thought that I conv9inced
her. But till she gained her chance of Darshan and experiences, it
was not going to be that easy for her to accept Baba.
Since then, it
continued to be days of arguments in the house, the object of
controversy being Baba Himself. In the end she would start crying
and even accusing Swami for all the sufferings in life. If He is
really God, she would ask, ‘Why are we placed in abject poverty?
Why are we forced to live in such a dirty locality? Why not He
bless us at least with a house in our own name in a better place?”
We had also suffered humiliation since the house we occupied was
unauthorized and the inspecting authorities subjected us to
considerable inconveniences. So the question from wife, though
appeared simple and naïve, emerging from the heart, failed to
elicit any proper and adequate response from me.
to get her around, by telling that it was with the Blessings of
Bhagavan Baba that we got this child. He would definitely do
something for us. I further advised her ‘not to cry hereafter’,
but start praying to Him with full devotion. I had developed
full faith in Baba and if she also developed such a faith, it
would prove very beneficial.
that she would adjust to this situation. It is Swami Himself who
instills faith and confidence and it is he himself who takes
further steps to fulfill the faith of an innocent devotee. I
prayed to Him to give peace and solace to my wife and take her
into His fold. Within a short period, Swami convinced us that He
had heard our prayers.
Maharashtra Government were constructing and allotting dwellings
for industrial workers and poorer sections in various places. I
had long time back applied for an allotment in a colony built in
the neighboring suburban city, Thane. There were about 200 single
room flats offered by the housing board for which over a lakh
applications for allotment had poured in. With the passage of
tine, I had even forgotten about it. Within a couple of months of
my wife’s return to Bombay with the child, I received by mail an
intimation from the Housing Board that I had been allotted a house
at Vartak Nagar, Thane. Yes, we got a nice little flat, of our
own, in the second floor on a very meager rent, which was being
subsidized by the Government. Those who got allotments as our
neighbors were all excellent God loving people. My wife liked the
place. She started developing faith in Swami and was eager to have
after fulfilling a desire of my wife with a house, happened to
visit Bombay again, within a short period after the earlier visit.
This time the Darshan was arranged in the compound of a bungalow
in the East side of Andheri. We had to travel a long way by
different modes of transport to reach the place. When we
ultimately reached the place, it was too late. We were not aware
of the timings of Darshan and the arrangements. We found that the
compound was almost empty barring a few volunteer devotees. We
came to know that Darshan was already over in the morning at about
8.00 AM., and there would not be any Darshan in the evening since
Swami was to attend another programme at King Circle, near
Matunga. We felt disappointed. This time, it was my wife, who
asked me to repose confidence in Baba! “Swami would definitely
know that we had come and we were sure to get His Darshan!”
Her newfound faith was not misplaced.
sitting under a tree in the compound. Swami suddenly made His
appearance in the doorstep. Before I could thing anything, my wife
jumped, and a trice, was near Swami. She kept the child on His
Lotus Feet, and caught hold of the ‘charan’ (Lotus Feet).
Placing her head on His Divine Feet, she was crying profusely. I
joined her and offered Namaskar to Swami. Baba, in His infinite
love and mercy, allowed her to weep for a while and then gently
called out to her. When she looked up, Swami glanced at her loving
and told her in Tamil, “You should not cry hereafter” (Note:
Readers may remember that these were the exact words which I had
uttered earlier to my wife). With our attention on the wonderful
charming face of Bhagavan, He smiled at us again, blessed us and
moved inside the house.
continued to stand there in a dazed condition, until the
volunteers rushed to push us out. According to them, we should not
have come after Darshan was over and caused inconvenience to
Swami. Lest our newfound Bliss might be spoiled, we moved out of
the compound with the child. This child is His gift and we felt
happy to place him on is Lotus Feet. Now it is up to Him to take
care of the child for the rest of his life. We felt confident then
and there, that he would not let us down.
got proof of this. Very shortly, before the child was one year
old, he had an attack of diphtheria. Till late on that fateful
night, we were not aware of the seriousness of the disease. This
new colony, had been developed in a far new location from the
city, and was a good 6 kilometers away from Thane and there was no
hospital or clinic in our vicinity. It was raining very heavily.
The child was running high fever and he was unable to take any
milk. He was not even able to swallow his saliva and it was
continuously coming out of his mouth. We got panicky. There was a
family from the south living in the colony and we took the child
to their house not knowing what to do. We could only pray. It was
late in the night and still raining. We had no money whatsoever
with us. My wife was inside their house and I was standing in the
verandah though getting wet in the rain.
really feel that we are helpless, the helping hand of Swami
reaches out. I could not believe my own eyes. I found a scooter
coming in front of the house and a man covered with a raincoat
stepped down. He was a doctor from Thane City civil hospital.
Indeed he was God sent, at the crucial time! I rushed to him and
explained the situation saying that my child was unwell and it
seemed that something was seriously wrong with him. The doctor
immediately attended on my child, diagnosed it to be a case of
diphtheria, and advised immediate hospitalization. It was a very
serious case, needing constant medical attention. I explained to
the doctor of my helpless situation without any money with me not
even for hiring a vehicle at this hour, leave alone medical
expenses. He looked at me straight on my face for a while. In fact
we were totally strangers. He advised me not to worry any more. He
administered some medicines, for temporary relief and said he
would come back immediately as he had to go to the city to get the
necessary medicines. He spent his own money for purchasing the
injections and other medicines. He said he would stay the whole
night with us since medicines had to be administered periodically
and the progress of the child had to monitored.
loving care of the kind doctor, the child crossed the danger mark
before dawn. The doctor took leave, promising to visit us again
during the morning hours. He visited twice again the next day.
faith in Swami helped us in our helpless situation. We could only
surrender and pray to Him. He had heard our prayers and sent a
Doctor to us at the time of crisis, a doctor with a heart to spare
his own money and time and who stayed throughout the night. This
is the story of the child begotten by His Grace and protected by
pilgrimage in the Divine Path had just begun. Years and years of
sweet experiences of His Divine Love, were to follow and flow into
Author's statement in:
Many of you may
be aware that I had authored a book with the title "Sri Sathya Sai
Hrudaya Nivasi (Indweller of Hearts). This book had seen the third
reprint, and is being sold in Bhagavan's Bookstall at Prashanthi
Nilayam. Many of you would have purchased and many would not have
got chance to go to Parthi and get the book. After the third
edition, this may not go to print again. As such I wish to bring
the contents of this book to each and every one of you.
Starting from today I shall post one chapter every week or if
possible twice a week, depending upon the response I get from you
all. I would request you to kindly read it and then re-circulate
it to your other friends in the Sai Family.
The text could be transferred to your hard disk, and if possible
print outs taken out.
Utilize the contents, as much as you like.
With Lots of Love and regards