Transformation of the
heart. A personal experience
Dr. Ramanath lyer, Dept. of Cardiology
Sathya Sai Baba
Some time back I could lay my hands
on a book titled-TRANSFORMATION OF THE HEART. After going through its
contents I travelled down my memory lane on a soul searching exercise!
joined the SSSIHMS in Aug 93 as one of the resident staffs ostensibly
with the idea of qualifying as a Cardiologist, but now when I look
back I appreciate that the benign influence of BHAGAWAN has wrought a
dramatic change in my perceptions and attitudes to many aspects of my
life and profession.
The initial couple of years sped by
trying to adjust to the many pecularities of this place. Not a day
passed without a conflict between my mental expectations and the
actual happenings.) was on one hand struggling to root out the many
negative tendencies in myself which BHAGAWAN often quoted as
impediments to the flow of DIVINE GRACE and spiritual progression the
other hand the none too congenial surroundings were trying to drag me
back in to the cesspool of basal instincts and behaviour.
Why-0-Why-this apparent paradox
between spoken words and performed actions?! used to mentally offer my
supplications to BHAGAWAN to clarify these contradictions.
Slowly but surely definitive answers
sunk in to my mind. As long as one identified oneself with the work
done, all these contradictions appeared very real and troublesome.
With difficulty when one learnt to accept the fact that all of this is
a mere drama directed by BHAGAWAN with us as actors with specific
roles, the identification complex vanished and with it the conflicts.
So like any drama there were assigned roles for the main hero, the
side hero and the villains. One's identity with the roles existed
only as far as the duration of the drama. This brought about a major
upheavel in attitudes towards everything in life. Surrendering
oneself and carrying out the work as His mere instrument brought
forth immense peace.
Successes did'nt elate nor failures
dissapoint. BHAGAWAN's message: "If you cant oblige, at least talk
obligingly", struck a sensitive chord in my heart. 1 ? power of speech
endowed by the Grace of Goddess Saraswathi was now used to charge
every patient with positive vibrations. It was indeed a miracle to see
that where medicines failed, tender, loving, reassuring words did the
magic. Once all actions were surrendered to Him, no work was good or
bad. Thus one could approach things with mental equanimity. With a
string of personal reverses and setbacks I could have ended being a
mental wreck. Surprisingly I discovered that acceptance of all things
as HIS WILL erased all unpleasant memories and reinforced my resolve
to see, hear, say and do good to one and all at any cost.
In hindsight I realised that silently
BHAGAWAN was exerting HIS all powerful influence to eradicate the
ego, so that the dormant divinity could bloom forth. The rising Sun,
the full moon, the dew drop laden grass, the enchanting flowers, the
trees, birds, animals and in short, all things around me started
appearing as veritable manifestations of His all pervading divinity.
With this the propensity to think evil, speak ill of others and act
derogatorily, all have taken a back seat. The process is not yet
complete but I can definitely say that I am overwhelmed by the
marvellous transformation of my heart-all by the Divine Grace and
Blessings of BHAGAWAN SRI SATHYA SAI BABA.
I offer my humble prayers to Him to
continue the chiselling so that hopefully one day I will be a fine
sculpture worthy of being designated as His real devotee and
disciple - an Arjuna to Krishna in Kali Yuga.
Sourced: SAI SPANDAN - Journal of
SSSIHMS Prasanthi Gram - Third Issue